Diary of a Middle Age Woman Writer

What The?

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Jamie O’Neal Frantic which was on the Shiver album released 2000 through Mercury Nashville Records.

 

Dear Diary,

I am tired.  T. I. R. E. D. Tired.

The merry month of May was busy. So much so that this post was written in May, trying to get ahead of the curve, and can start June off doing real work.  You know -writing, editing and illustrating.

May was unexpected and only half planned. June is feeling a little packed with priorities.  Maybe when the scheduled date of this entry’s posting will find me not as far behind as I am expecting.

A few days ago, I was training for an endurance event with a friend.  We spent 2 hours walking 6 miles.  We talked about all the stuff that composed this last month’s rush of activities and our goals.

Our discussion covered ‘becoming a writer’. We talked about how one of us used to be a runner, and the other is.  I am not ready to call myself one yet, but I have been on that other side.  The line between wannabe and being.

I asked if she considered herself a runner. Now she does, but when she first started, she didn’t.  Five years ago I consider myself a runner, now I don’t. Yet.  I know I am on the path and I know that I don’t see where I will cross that line again. But it is there. Having done it once, I have confidence I will again.

Sometime during May, I crossed that line with my writing. Somewhere importance of actually doing the writing outweighed my fears of how that writing would be received.  Some of the last 3 years felt at the time like it was wasted.  That impression is coming into perspective that wasn’t there at the beginning of this year.  Now it all seems more like training.  Plateaus of training that got me from wanting to be a writer, to being a writer.

Anything that starts with a novice level of knowledge and ability – a trying it on for size beginning, has another stage. So does writing. Somewhere you cross the line from novice to intermediate and you stop being new to it.  You start being.

NOT that you have become masterful or expert. That is some way off plateau I am working towards. Hopeful, but not cocky about it.  Optimistic.

j

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2 thoughts on “What The?”

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